thought

i am here..and perhaps there too…
everywhere,watching my life race ahead of me.
i am the moment,that stretched for a lifetime..
or perhaps the lifetime-
that flashed by in a moment.
i am the today..
and also the day that has gone..
perhaps,i am minor ripple in stagnant waters;
or,maybe,a storm from the depths of the sea..
i am here this moment..the next,perhaps i [...]

jog,blog,hog…

not such a bad day after all. we are back to real jogging form after all.jogged five kms today,with a lot of sweat admitted,but after the jog we did both feel that had we had to jog another kilometer or two,it would not be too bad.we jogged slowly,but steadily,and both felt that we are ready [...]

wtf news of the day

news clip running on the tube in the mess in evening:  “amitabh ki chandni nahi banengi sridevi”
and the scroll at the bottom of the screen says: “boney ke liye kiya tha na?”
it is best if leave out the name of the news channel.even i can never cease to be surprised by the peaks our journalism [...]

judgement

>>she was like one of the mannequins they have in the fancy cloth stores…all pretty and perfectly formed;but hollow inside…

dirge…or lament of the dead

it is true,
that we are dead,
unlamented,abandoned,
we remember our days,
and shed a quiet tear,
for the lives we lost,
alive-but not lived,
and parts-lived in parts.
the will not be any more poems,
and not again,
shall we weep with keats,
the search of odysseus
will never throb our veins again,
we have lost pleasure,
and the capacity for pain,
we went to find everything,
and found [...]

coward

headaches, and a
sleepy insomnia,bring
a screen of red,in front of
the eyes,tired eyelids
droop but cannot
sleep.stiitng in classrooms,
business discussions with
thoughts of perdition-
i think of cheap hotels and
dirty,muddy coffee,and
spectral shapes of
cigarette smoke in dark rooms;
shouting neon signs,
too loud in the
scared night;and subdued
junkies.the high of
grass in a dirty bed
with semen stained sheets
and floating in streets with
pleasure sellers-
soul merchandise,i think of
loneliness,despair-
and [...]

cheat

i am alone,
with myself,and smoke,
and a silence,
which i try to fill with music,
which i dont listen to,anyway,
and random talk,
to fill the gaps,
which seem unpluggable…
i seem to have broken myself,
and now the pieces are hurting,
and somehow,everytime we talk,
i lose a bit of myself,
and every moment we dont…
i know know how i love you,
but i also know [...]

nostalgia

in the first year,i used to miss morning classes because i would sleep late and wake up late.now i miss evening classes because most nights i cannot sleep at all,and have to attend in the day,mostly afternoons.
today was another such morning.at seven in the morning,went to dadu’s and had two slices of chocolate bread and [...]

morning

i have sleep
in my eyes,and swollen
lids,and tired hands,which
refuse to write.tired body
hearing and not
listening to voices in
the classroom.i am
dreaming of stars,and
discotheques,and eyes,
and lips and hair,
and flowers and blood,
i woke up early,in
the morning,sitting
by the window,listening
to Pink Floyd,and Dylan
and jim morrison
fill the silence,waiting
for the butterflies.love
will go,and a random
sadness fills inside.
sitting in the classrom,discussing
business,and smelling stale beer
from the night
before [...]

a day in god’s life-part one

and so the god woke up,and looked around.sun was not yet travelling the skies.’late again’,he thought,’i will have to do something about his late rising habits’.
grousing,the god decided to freshen up,and moved to the lav.rubbing the sleep out of his eyes,he started putting some paste on his toothbrush,and stopped again in
surprise.babool again!the quality of the [...]