whiskey tango foxtrot

I am troubled. Very deeply troubled. All the worries and disappointments of the past seven months are taking a toll now, and I am totally unable to concentrate on my work. I arrived at work two hours ago, and so far I have been unable to do an iota of work. I am just sitting [...]

beloved

i feel like a caged bird,
trying to look out the window,
seeking,something i have a lost,
a fragment of the sky i just finished painting-
my hands are still a wet blue and white,
the clouds dripping from my fingers,
in a dry,half-imaginary rain.
i sometimes imagine freedom-
substitute skies above me,
and ersatz ground on which i stand,
fake spray from a make-believe [...]

incomplete poems

oh,to be beyond the veiled lights,
and find solace in wrath unwrought,
to rest exhausted,troubled, and cold,
in the fiery arms of a dream forgot-
to live,to lie,to unconsciously die,
and dream of dreams in dreams inlaid,
windows in the minds of men of straw,
chinese boxes of words never said.
more like disjointed lines really.

quick thoughts-2

# Coming to work in the morning today, I saw a gaggle of geese, smack in the middle of the
busy SV Road. Now who would have figured THAT!
# A ‘gaggle’ of geese. Ain’t that a beautiful term now, for a flock of animals. right up there
with a ’school’ of fish.
# I think that if I [...]

worlds

today,
is just like any other day,except-
a sense of desperation is growing stronger,
like the day-before-yesterday,
i know it will go away again,
like you did,
a long time ago,
and those hyperactive senses do not matter,
anymore,there is no one really like-
you,anymore,
or maybe,everyone is-
tinted glasses might have been a help-
in the brutal daylight?
stories are read,in colour,
not through the straw coloured liquid [...]

quick thoughts

just a quick jotting down of observations before i head home:
1) Any salesman who has his shoes dust-free at the end of the day, either not in front-line sales or a dandy (he may well be in B2B, but that is not sales sales, if you know what i mean).
 
2) Time has probably the worst [...]

inside my head

Today,someone asked if i was allright. I shrugged and said,ya,course i was.
There is this constant headache that refuses to go away,suffocating me from the inside,as if there were a thousand million little children inside my head,all gasping for breath,caught inside this shrink-wrap of existence,knocking to be released from the inside of my skull,a thousand million [...]

reading

so,ok.light reading takes precedence over literature.again.infinite jest is to be put on hold while i go out today and buy the artemis fowl series of books.to be consumed in their entireity.

BodhiTree-Revisited

ok.lets get over with the confession part of it,first-while i like the music of BodhiTree-I am NOT a diehard fan.In fact,only by the very loosest definition would I be called a fan,if at all.Given a choice, I would more rather listen to The Eagles,Pink Floyd, The Doors, Tina Turner, R D Burman or even Guns [...]

change?

the days you gave us,are getting shorter,
the darkness of night keeps spreading its cloak,
beyond the trees,night no longer waits for the sun to set,
before the shadows lengthen,starless,it arrives.
the world is changing, Lord,
the rules have changed,
did you ever imagine of this-
this shape of your world?
I have become a stranger to myself,
trapped among staggering,stumbling souls and hot [...]