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He is half drunk, as usual. He never gets sloshed now…responsibilities are catching up. So he just gets half drunk…to the stage where he does not know what he is doing; but not the stage where he doesn’t know what he is doing which he should not be doing. His value system is corrupted now. [...]

inventory

what was lost, is not redeemable. what might be gained, is dubious. gotterdammerung. the twilight of the gods. may be not yet. but in time. jargon. applied to life. slippery slopes or precipices. is an empty house better than an empty heart? how does one try forget what one does not even remember? and how [...]

the losers’ manifesto

The room is slowly swimming into a hazy sort of view again, and the whole body seems dehydrated and aching and listless and I am wondering again, what it was that I did last night, and whatever it was that I did last night, why did I do it? There do not seem to be [...]

So, yo man! what’s your story?

I am growing Dysfunctional- Growing, in life, reducing in age, Unresponsive, While a million shooting stars shout- ‘So, yo man!, what’s your story?’ With hints of their own answers ‘I was less than a child- or less than a man’ To be, first finishing a journey, Then departing. Psychedelic orange parkas in the heat of [...]

unaccustomed earths

He is not really living his own life. He has just woken up in someone else’s nightmare. And he has been stuck there for the past twenty seven years. He is not himself these days. He does not jog anymore, and two days of sickness have taken their toll. High fever and hour after hour [...]

leaving XL

I graduated from XL in the middle of a recession. Didn’t get a job in FMCG, got a job that didn’t pay me a million rupees a year, did not get a cushy trainee stint with end of the year bonuses just for completing the stint to start with, and worst of all, didn’t get [...]

checklist

this is a strange feeling. three beers and a reasonable level of alcohol in my bloodstream and india winning that match, and somehow life seemed to be like a white feather floating on whisper-soft winds with sails of laughter and colours of joy, when suddenly unbidden this thought comes into the mind- there might not [...]

stories-redux

Every minute spent with you is another page in a story which will not be written. Because all the stories worth telling are already done, and there are no new tales. You want to be simple. Normal. And you are more complex than a system of Chinese boxes. There is always something new. Like your [...]

pre travel weekend

1. drink three beers on friday night. 2. read till 2 am in the morning. 3. wake up at 11am on saturday. 4. ask the bai to cook chicken and rice. 5. order two beers. 6. watch a movie on laptop, forget to eat lunch till 5pm. 7. order another two beers. read a book [...]

invictus (or the box of painkillers)

Let us look at the world, not through it. That’s a pretty big proposition to put at the start of a conversation. Why are people lonely? Or maybe what is loneliness? Is there an absolute like loneliness? Is it not more of the togetherness of others? Just like there is no dark, there is only [...]